This Unknown Feeling

 Hello again!..

How have you been?? Did you have fun since our last talk? I hope you're living your life at the fullest and the bestest as it can be. 

If youre new to here Welcome I'm Homemade Human. I write blogs just for fun so don't really take these seriously.

Well then. Let's start then...Shall we?

I've been kinda feeling unknown. I can't describe it. I'm a highschooler and next year my life is getting so much more serious. And I was never serious at anything my whole entire life. I get good grades just listening the classes and didn't need to study a bit. But after this year I really need to study. I don't really hate studying. What I hate is studying something I don't want. For example I really love English, art, music. I can't say I hate math or chem bio etc. But when they force me to study math science I Hate it. I can't describe the hatred feeling in me because of how art and literature is considered "cheap" because they think it's something replacable, and the math science is the only thing can make modey in this world. And I think you understand where I'm going with this. Yes my parents force me to be good in math and science and ignore my love for any kind of art. And on top of these they want me to study smth I don't want in uni. I feel like an ungrateful child because of how they educate me, they will give so much money to those courses I will go next year...But that's not what I want. I feel like an idiot for being like this but I don't want to do that. And the fact that I know won't be good in any of those is what killing me from inside. And all this makes me want to disappear even more each day pass by. 

Whether I disappear or not, there are still many traces left behind me.

Love,

Homemade Human.